Intro to my testimony of faith

Haven't wrote anything for some time...
Yet I want to share the good news here, I want to give my testimony of faith..
After a long time, I finally received what I wanted from God, to speak in tongue..

I haven't received for a long time because I think and analyze too much..
I always thought..to speak in tongue is from God, I shouldn't learn it or copy it from others,
God will give it to me. So, I spent some time struggling and asking, why God?
why I can't receive it, I feel it in my tongue, yet it won't come out.

Because I rely on my understanding...

Faith is something you cant use your brain and logic..

All is good in HIS time!!

So..one day, someone I know passed away,
I'm going to his funeral, but the place is in another city,
So, someone I know yet never met in real person contact me,
because she want to go to the funeral to, so we go to the funeral together,
and she share her testimony of faith.

In the end, she ask me to go to her church, its a small and regular church,
but you can really feel God's presence there,
and God bless them with a lot of gift I haven't see it in another place,
the gift to interpret speaking in tongue, the gift of seeing the unseen spirit world,
the gift to demolish the evil spirit, etc.

In the end, I ask God to give me the gift of speaking in tongue,
something that I haven't got after some retreat..even though I keep asking for it
At first they ask me to repeat a word, I keep repeating it,
(the logic is, don't you teach babies by keep repeating a words?)

After a while I feel my tongue came loose..
and my sister in faith tells me to say it louder..
when I speak louder, my tongue speak another words, its not the words I've kept repeating,
sounds like Korean-Japanese to me, and I just keep blabbering without being able to control it.

And that time..I was crying..
God knows what I'm thinking, that's why HE give me a different language...so I know that HE is real,

Speaking in tongue is real, it's not something you made it up.
Oh, and the good thing is, there's some people who can interpret it for us,
so we know is it from GOD or from the deceiver.
Since the devil can also try and confuse you.

And on my part, it's because the language I'm using sounds really different,
others sounds like Hebrew, and European language.
But then I heard they have another person that speaks similar to me, guess we're on asians-kind-of-language

It's a new experience for me,
I'm still learning here and keep trying to use it all the time,
at least 1 hour a day so that the Holy Spirit in me can grow.

It is important, because if I never use it, the Holy Spirit will be weak and the devil will try to destroy it. Without using it (speak in tongue) and feed the Holy Spirit (by reading the bible verse),
your Spirit will not grow into adulthood
(you can hear it from the way you speaks in tongue, if it's only a couple of syllable, with the same tone, most likely your Holy Spirit is still a baby)

Some people who read this may think that I'm crazy, or this is another wrong teaching,
I don't care what others think, because..come on, you think I'm not struggling when I got into this church?
there are times I doubt it, then I ask my pastor (from my previous church - The Clay Church)
and he gives me 1 Corinthians 14, which I read about it too..

and he wants to make sure, that the most important thing: prophecy is for edification, encouragement and consolation, didn't find anything wrong in that sections too
well the most important thing is that: if you doubt it, check it in the bible, if it's doesn't goes against bible, than it's true, because bible is the book of truth.

And not only that, you can see from the people inside of the church, what kind of people are they?
it is better to be surrounded by ex-sinner that has given up their false way, to be changed and renew by God
because we're all sinners...than hang out with people that think they are righteous, perfect, and have not sinned.

To make it easier, always seek for the spirit fruit (Gal 5:22-23)
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,
gentleness, selfcontrol. Against such there is no law."

If you cannot find it in the people who attends the church, than what's their differences from those who didn't know Jesus?

I haven't tell my pastor that for the sermon we use speaking in tongue, and someone else interpret it.
What the pastor says in the sermon is what comes from the LORD, THE LORD teach us directly.
But then...I think he will says that it ain't right..
but I've tested it, and I'm growing here spiritually, God has works amazingly in me,
the old me live in the grays...the new me..realized that the demon try to manipulate the way we think..
there's no grey area..it's only black and white, go to hell or go to heaven

we're aiming for New Jerusalem, not only Firdaus,
that is why we need to prepare by reading HIS words in the Bible
and keep praying in tongue at least 1 hours a day.
and not only that we also have to grow the fruit of the spirit in our life.

By the grace of GOD he died in the cross for us, so that those who believe in him will be saved,
yet we have to keep our salvation by keep doing what he teach us,
to live in the spirit by keep feeding our spirit in Bible verse and praying in tongue
and to stop feeding our flesh with sin.
it's not easy but the Holy Spirit will guide us. AMEN

I always feels that there's no perfect religion, the most important things is to trust in Lord Jesus Christ, because religion could upset you, and confuse you. And your religion leader could disappointed you.
But when you're following Jesus and HIS teaching..you will never be disappointed.
Amen!! God Bless You all :)