Sometimes

Sometimes..it's really hard to see God's plan in our life... 
sometimes...we just want to run away from our problems.. 
and find a safe secret hiding place... 
but guess what...HE have another plan in your life... 
HE wants you to stop running away 
and face the problems with his presence in your life.. 
me? I'm just like the israelites who keep falling into my weakness... 
everytime I try to run away...or at least, planning to run away ;p 
HE always makes me stop, and recalculating.... 
I do admit that sometimes if I use my brain.. 
everything just doesn't make sense... 
why should I insisting on something that doesnt seem would happen 
or give any benefit for me, myself and I? 
I try to runaway, and planned my escape, 
but HE stopped me by making my plan impossible 
and reminds me: 
Jeremiah 29:11 
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future 
but I'm stubborn and worries......and HE try to remind me for the second and third time with this verse.. 
Today................................................I have the same struggle...................... 
this uncertainty.......really gets on my nerve.......and all the pressure......tumbling down my decisions...or so I thought.....guess I never really made up my mind......because...I dont think I can life my life like this for another two three years........the pressure.....too much to handle....... 
yet....I fall on my knees to ask for HIS guidance.........and here's what HE told me: 
Jeremiah 42: Flight to Egypt (and just when I was complaining what does flight to egypt has to do with this ;p).....................If you stay in this land, I will build you up and not tear you down........Do not be afraid....for I am with you and will safe you...I will show you compassion.... 
so...I give up...I'll leave it up to HIM...I'll do my part and let him do HIS part.....let your will be done in my life o LORD....Amen